I recall one day years ago, feeling like I had exhausted all my options. I had a problem that weighed so heavy on my mind. I felt like a failure, and why can’t I just have this problem fixed?! I don’t want to deal with this anymore! And I would try to just get over it, just try harder, have a good attitude, and all those things. Tomorrow I’ll do better, tomorrow, tomorrow. I thought I knew what the Lord wanted me to do here. It seemed so obvious yet it also felt so impossible. I had ASSUMED that I knew what to do, and I continually felt defeated. It’s funny how some things seem too silly to pray about. Here was a problem that was like a big brick wall, and I thought it wasn’t something to go to the Lord with. I’ll just climb over the wall…and every day I would try to climb it, and every day I was tired. FINALLY, when I talked to someone about my struggles-she asked if I had prayed about it. Hah! Prayer? I already know what I need to do, just buck up and do better. I kept thinking the Lord was so disappointed in me and wished I could just get over it already. Oh how wrong I was…He wanted to help me. But I hadn’t asked for the help yet. Plus deep down I knew part of the problem was letting go of my wants. I wanted His help as long as it would lead me to what I wanted:)
I finally prayed for help, and I can look back and see how he led me along-guiding me to lasting help. I can also look back and see when I would go in circles-as I would hang onto what I wanted-not wanting to really let go. But His answer was the same, I often heard in my heart, “Did I not speak peace to your mind concerning the matter?” (D&C 6:23) So over time I would try my way less and less, and follow Him more. And I felt like He was loosening my chains. As quickly as I would obey, he would help me. I, the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise. (D&C 82:10) He didn’t just lift me over the brick wall, He led me around it-showing me a totally different way, something I hadn’t even thought of. And I thought I wouldn’t be happy unless I got what I wanted-yet He showed me amazing joy in giving up my wants and casting my burdens on the Lord. Give Him all of it-the sins, worries, heartaches, obsessions, anything heavy. HE ALREADY SUFFERED THESE THINGS-SO THAT WE WOULDN’T HAVE TO SUFFER. But we have to go to Him. His hand is stretched out still and always will be. I see myself searching all around, trying to fix things, do things my way-or what I think I’m “supposed” to do. Yet when I go to the Lord, He shows me a better way. But I have to ASK. He wants to help-we just need to ask…He is the perfect one to ask, since He knows everything about us-He has felt all our pains. He knows us better than we know ourselves-so He is the ultimate source for deliverance. Prayer is a powerful thing. We can call on heaven and He will send His angels. Not in our way, but in the Lord’s way. When we give Him our hearts, our will-He will bless us in profound ways.
The devil tries to keep us off our knees and out of the scriptures. Eternal joy is found in our Heavenly Father and His son, Jesus Christ. He is Living Water. I was noticing how often joy is mentioned in the Book of Mormon-particularly as His children taste of and share the love of God with others. I love how sharing in His love and joy increases my own. It tastes so good-we want to share it. As I’ve found relief from sorrow in our Savior, I see others troubled and I want to lead them to Him.
2 Nephi 31:21 And now, behold, my beloved brethren, this is the way; and there is none other way nor name given under heaven whereby man can be saved in the kingdom of God. And now, behold, this is the doctrine of Christ, and the only and true doctrine of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost, which is one God, without end. Amen.
Christ is the only way for true healing, peace amidst the storms of life, and forever joy.
Poem by Francis Thompson…
I fled Him, down the nights and down the days;
I fled Him, down the arches of the years…
From those strong Feet that followed, followed after.
But with unhurrying chase,
And unperturbed pace,
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,
They beat-and a Voice beat
More instant than the Feet-
‘All things betray thee, who betrays Me.
This song shares this message so beautifully: