The Only Way

I recall one day years ago, feeling like I had exhausted all my options.  I had a problem that weighed so heavy on my mind.  I felt like a failure, and why can’t I just have this problem fixed?!  I don’t want to deal with this anymore!  And I would try to just get over it, just try harder, have a good attitude, and all those things.  Tomorrow I’ll do better, tomorrow, tomorrow.  I thought I knew what the Lord wanted me to do here.  It seemed so obvious yet it also felt so impossible.  I had ASSUMED that I knew what to do, and I continually felt defeated.  It’s funny how some things seem too silly to pray about.  Here was a problem that was like a big brick wall, and I thought it wasn’t something to go to the Lord with.  I’ll just climb over the wall…and every day I would try to climb it, and every day I was tired.  FINALLY, when I talked to someone about my struggles-she asked if I had prayed about it.  Hah!  Prayer?  I already know what I need to do, just buck up and do better.  I kept thinking the Lord was so disappointed in me and wished I could just get over it already.  Oh how wrong I was…He wanted to help me.  But I hadn’t asked for the help yet.  Plus deep down I knew part of the problem was letting go of my wants.  I wanted His help as long as it would lead me to what I wanted:)

I finally prayed for help, and I can look back and see how he led me along-guiding me to lasting help.  I can also look back and see when I would go in circles-as I would hang onto what I wanted-not wanting to really let go.  But His answer was the same, I often heard in my heart, “Did I not speak peace to your mind concerning the matter?” (D&C 6:23)  So over time I would try my way less and less, and follow Him more.  And I felt like He was loosening my chains.  As quickly as I would obey, he would help me.  I, the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say; but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise. (D&C 82:10)  He didn’t just lift me over the brick wall, He led me around it-showing me a totally different way, something I hadn’t even thought of.  And I thought I wouldn’t be happy unless I got what I wanted-yet He showed me amazing joy in giving up my wants and casting my burdens on the Lord.  Give Him all of it-the sins, worries, heartaches, obsessions, anything heavy.  HE ALREADY SUFFERED THESE THINGS-SO THAT WE WOULDN’T HAVE TO SUFFER.  But we have to go to Him.  His hand is stretched out still and always will be.  I see myself searching all around, trying to fix things, do things my way-or what I think I’m “supposed” to do.  Yet when I go to the Lord, He shows me a better way.  But I have to ASK.  He wants to help-we just need to ask…He is the perfect one to ask, since He knows everything about us-He has felt all our pains.  He knows us better than we know ourselves-so He is the ultimate source for deliverance.  Prayer is a powerful thing.  We can call on heaven and He will send His angels.  Not in our way, but in the Lord’s way.  When we give Him our hearts, our will-He will bless us in profound ways.

The devil tries to keep us off our knees and out of the scriptures.  Eternal joy is found in our Heavenly Father and His son, Jesus Christ.  He is Living Water.  I was noticing how often joy is mentioned in the Book of Mormon-particularly as His children taste of and share the love of God with others.  I love how sharing in His love and joy increases my own.  It tastes so good-we want to share it.  As I’ve found relief from sorrow in our Savior, I see others troubled and I want to lead them to Him.

2 Nephi 31:21 And now, behold, my beloved brethren, this is the way; and there is none other way nor name given under heaven whereby man can be saved in the kingdom of God. And now, behold, this is the doctrine of Christ, and the only and true doctrine of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost, which is one God, without end. Amen.

Christ is the only way for true healing, peace amidst the storms of life, and forever joy.

Poem by Francis Thompson…

I fled Him, down the nights and down the days;

I fled Him, down the arches of the years…

From those strong Feet that followed, followed after.

But with unhurrying chase,

And unperturbed pace, 

Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,

They beat-and a Voice beat

More instant than the Feet-

‘All things betray thee, who betrays Me.

This song shares this message so beautifully:


Mother Earth

Not too long ago, I watched a movie with my husband.  The movie wasn’t that great, BUT, there was a scene that I will never forget.  Technology today is incredible and it showed a view of the earth from space.  It took my breath away-it was extraordinary.  There were no borders on the land-no dividing lines to show specific states and countries.  I couldn’t stop staring at the beautiful earth-this incredible creation of God that looked so heavenly from above.

I was recently in Lake Powell on a boat ride and the view around us was just awesome.  It almost looked fake-like we were looking at a photoshopped postcard or something.  A friend wondered aloud, what God may have been thinking and feeling as He created the variety of beauty on the earth-particularly the view that surrounded us.

I’ve been worried about this earth lately.  About all of us as a human family and children of God-brothers and sisters.  I don’t even know how to address the strife going on all over the globe right now.  I’m just one person.  A woman that feels so blessed and lives in a free country she loves and that probably takes a lot for granted.  I want to help.  I’ve been praying for the earth lately-picturing this beautiful creation of God with that heavenly atmospheric glow. I’ve never felt this desire to pray for our earth-people yes, but the earth specifically, well that’s new to me.

I was reading in Moses today…

Enoch is shown the whole earth in darkness-with Satan and his angels laughing and rejoicing.  It says in verse 28, “that the God of heaven looked upon the residue of the people, and he wept.   It’s so beautiful as Enoch asks the Lord, “How is it that thou canst weep, seeing that thou art holy, and from all eternity to all eternity?  And were it possible that man could number the particles of the earth, yea, millions of earths like this, it would not be a beginning to the number of thy creations…thou art kind and merciful forever…how is it thou canst weep?”  And the Lord says to Enoch, “Behold these thy brethren; they are the workmanship of mine own hands, and I gave unto them their knowledge, in the day I created them; and in the Garden of Eden gave I unto man his agency.  And unto thy brethren have I said, and also given commandment, that they should love one another, that they should choose me, their Father; but behold, they are without affection, and they hate their own blood.”

Moses 7:48 “And it came to pass that Enoch looked upon the earth; and he heard a voice from the bowels thereof, saying: Wo, wo is me, the mother of men; I am pained, I am weary, because of the wickedness of my children.  When shall I rest, and be cleansed from the filthiness which is gone forth out of me?  When will my Creator sanctify me, that I may rest, and righteousness for a season abide upon my face?”

How can I help?  Lately I’ve felt discouraged.  Sometimes I feel so far from where I want to be.  I was talking with a friend the other day and her light lifted me.  Just her presence was like medicine to my soul.  I had been thinking I needed to be in a better place to share my light, I needed to feel better about life before I reached out to the world.  The Spirit told my heart, “Waiting till you’re feeling better to follow the light is like avoiding the hospital until you’re healed.”  I knew what I needed to do, but my imperfections kept staring me in the face.  Focusing on mine or anyone’s imperfections is poison.  It drags us down.  How does this affect the whole earth?  What I share can be a healing balm or a toxic poison-like ripple affects throughout the world.  When I get hung up on something negative and withhold love-from myself or others, I keep hearing the same message from the Spirit, “That’s irrelevant.  Nothing justifies withholding love.”  And I am reminded of our Father’s unconditional love.  He loves us with all our imperfections.  And His love is what He wants us to share.  His love is what changes us and changes the world.

Recently, my two little boys were fighting and I was so sad to see them that angry with each other.  I thought, “I wish you cared about each other the way I care about each of you.”  The Spirit whispered, “That’s how God feels.”

Every day is filled with thousands of moments to share His love-in our thoughts, our words and actions.  Like ripple affects throughout the earth-we all make a difference.

Not sharing because we’re perfect, but sharing because we’re all children of God-we’re all brothers and sisters.