I’ve been thinking about sacrifice lately-I used to think it was to give everything away. That the ultimate was to live a “sackcloth and ashes” life and anything extra was worldly.
Sometimes I’m asked for things and it feels like the best answer is “no”. But I don’t want to appear selfish and honestly-I wrongly think it’s easier to say “yes” in the moment. When I say “yes” when I know it should be “no”, I regret and find out the hard way why I should have listened. The Lord knows what’s best as he sees everything from an eternal view. When I don’t follow His guidance-how can He help me? He wants to protect me, to strengthen my faith, to teach me.
He builds mansions, not little cottages. He sees our potential and if we give Him our heart-oh what he can do with us.
What is sacrifice? Anything I’ve given the Lord has been returned with great blessings and growth. Trials and opposition cause needless suffering in my life when I try to do things my way instead of His. When I submit and say “Thy will be done.” It’s quite a different experience than when I say, “Anything but this…you can have anything but this.” Sometimes it’s a hobby that’s become too important. Sometimes it’s pride and worrying what people think. Sometimes it’s admitting I’m wrong. He wants to be first on the list. He offers the Living Water that will make us whole.
What does the Lord want me to sacrifice? What can I give Him that isn’t already His? What could He possibly need from little old me? My heart. To give him my desires. For my wants and needs to be whatever He wants for me.
To align our will with the divine brings divinity to life. Life becomes deeply meaningful. He wants to grace our lives with His love. Like daily manna from Heaven-He wants us to rely on His word daily. Being led beforehand…not knowing the things that we should do (1 Nephi 4:6).
I love this quote-it reminds me of the need to follow the spirit from moment to moment…”I believe one of the greatest challenges for members of the Church is to ensure that our lives are not led by routine. When we are governed by routine, we tend to become insensitive to the need to walk with the companionship of the Holy Ghost. When we are blessed with the companionship of the Holy Ghost, we are protected in dangerous situations, and we are capable of making right decisions and overcoming all fear.”
(Enzio Busche, Yearning for the Living God)
What should I give? What should I say “yes” and “no” to? I’m learning it’s far more intimate and personal than some blanket statement that I can turn to when I don’t know what to do. He wants me to have His constant guidance. To turn to Him and say, “Speak Lord, for thy servant heareth.”